Pulling

The last two night I've watched the showed "Pulling". It was very entertaining, but made my heart hurt  too. I could see so much of myself in all three of the female leads. I pointed that fact out to my BF. ( the look of shock on his face could have been funny if it didn't scare me)
That is the reason I'm trying to write down my thoughts. I'm tired of watching the look of "what a freak"on the faces of people in my real life.
I'm not a great writer, so if your looking for wit and insight I'm not the girl for you. I'm doing this so I can keep a record of my thoughts and moods. Holding out hope that I can connect with people who are hanging on by their finger nails too.

A little history on me.

In April 2010 my whole life changed overnight; I was rubber stamped "crazy" and stayed for 20 days, of the required forced 30 days, in a locked psych ward. I always believed (and described) myself as strong willed and quirky... but it turns out I am actually Borderline.

Bogeyman

As a child I thought the bogeyman was real. Hanging out under my bed, closet, or looking at me through the window waiting for me to fall asleep. I now know there is no big bad bogeyman out there. The bogeyman is living inside my head. I am the thing that goes bump in the night.